smoking ..

i started to be a smoker after our relationship break down,,,,,,as i cant resist the stress and the sadness cause of the break up of our relationship...
and i know that u r so piss off from me for all the behaviour i show towards u ...
and u r trying to avoid me,,,
dear,
and now,,,i gonna quiting to smoke,,,no more ....even though it is so so difficult..
and i do hope that....by doing this at least will slightly increase some positive point of me in ur mind,,,i hope so,,,
i m torrenting now,,,,its has been 23hr since i decide to quit,,,,i m so suffering,,,,and u knw its wasnt that easy to quit smoking.,..
but ,i will accept and torrent every single pain that cause from the quiting smoking progress ......
and i will success.....and i know thats r something motivated me from behind,,,that is the love i gonna show u ..and this will reflect the willinging i want to change to be a betterman,,,,